This track is a brief exploration of loneliness. Often self identifying as an introvert, my tendency is to withdraw from the world but as I express in the track I am beginning to think it is not always what’s best for me. This is the first in a series of tracks written and recorded during lockdown in November 2020. My songwriting partner and producer (jackgillenguitar) and I decided we were going to change up the way we were working, which was basically overworking. Overworking, over editing and over producing until the music began to lose it’s focus, as did we! As a major perfectionist I am really prone to this and all it does really is stifle the creative flow! So we decided we were just going to go into the studio and try and write and record songs in a much shorter time frame - a day if possible. This track actually ended up taking a few sessions but a lot of what you hear here was a result of the first session, in fact the first verse was the first thing that came out of my mouth. I just started talking and we rolled with it. In Julia Cameron’s ‘The Artist’s Way’ (possibly my favourite book on creativity), she sets the task of ‘morning pages’ which is essentially just a brain dump of all your thoughts first thing in the morning, just three pages of writing down your free flowing thoughts as they come to you. It’s amazing what comes to light during these pages sometimes! Anyway we decided we want these sessions to be like ‘musical pages’. So whatever ideas came, we would go with them, trust them and not really be allowed to scrap them, which was definitely hard at times. For example, the speech in the track felt quite exposing for me and I was nervous to share it but we kept it. We kept it because that is what came out and I am so glad we did because it unlocked a whole different format for me to play with and I actually found it so freeing. I liked it so much that I used speech in another song in this series too. I really hope you like it. All my love, S x Subscribe and follow on my other platforms for more Stella! . https://www.instagram.com/stellaangelikamusic/ . https://www.facebook.com/stellaangelikamusic . https://open.spotify.com/artist/5rW8Cifmv7wQ3txMzYqDJj?si=aROrFZD4SSOuOSXfQJ-pQA . https://twitter.com/Stellaangelika_ . https://www.stellaangelika.com S x

Mindfulness meditation has been part of my daily routine now for just under 2 years or so. It has changed my experience of life greatly already and I know that I am just scratching the surface of this thing! It’s incredible. I urge anyone and everyone to give it a try. Far beyond the benefits reported in the wellness industry like reducing stress and keeping anxiety at bay. Mindfulness practice and meditation reveal things about yourself and the world that you didn’t even know existed, or did at a time but buried or forgot. It is something I am nowhere near capable of describing to you adequately because I still have so much deeper to go myself. But already I am a passionate advocate for it. This vid is a brief report on my experience meditating for 5 hours for the first time. I was really excited by the idea of just doing the meditation itself but also about the idea of sharing my experience with you too. There are many things that I left out as a) I am not an expert and am wary not to misinform b) I didn’t want to bore you c) I am not a great videographer Almost everything that could go wrong with this video did. To the point where I had to make the decision to either not publish it, or accept that it was going to be very rough round the edges, just get over myself and accept that ‘everything is as it should be’. So my apologies for the fact that it is very out of sync in places, bits of text are misaligned and so much more that makes the perfectionist in me tense! I genuinely have no idea whether it will be of any interest to anyone but I figure, if theres a chance that it might and that it might help even just one person to discover mindfulness then thats reason enough to share! 'Everything Is' Official Music video: https://youtu.be/tlZTLYvoLMQ - Subscribe and follow on my other platforms for more Stella! . https://www.instagram.com/stellaangelikamusic/ . https://www.facebook.com/stellaangelikamusic . https://open.spotify.com/artist/5rW8Cifmv7wQ3txMzYqDJj?si=aROrFZD4SSOuOSXfQJ-pQA . https://twitter.com/Stellaangelika_ . https://www.stellaangelika.com S x

For when your anxiety + depression are coming at you. - I shot this video myself during lockdown in 2020. I'm not a videographer and didn't have a camera so it was going to have to be shot on my phone. I knew therefore that it had to be something simple otherwise it would just look shit. Also so that it wouldn't detract from the lyrics. I came up with the idea of me just sitting there meditating . I loved this idea immediately because it felt so right for the song which is all about sitting with what is, accepting it and learning to just sit with it. I decided I would speed up the footage so it wasn't completely dull and meant sitting in meditation for a long time! I worked out I would need to sit for 5 hours to get enough footage (these calculations were wrong I later realised). I do have a daily meditation practice but up until that point I had only ever meditated for 10 minutes so 5 hours was a big jump! But I loved the idea of challenging myself and then being able to share the experience with you guys! I was so proud that I'd pushed myself, A few years ago I never would have believed I would be a meditator, but my mindfulness meditation practice is 100% one of the most powerful weapons I have against my depression and anxiety. I cannot recommend it enough! So I hope you enjoy this song and the message of acceptance. It's such a bitch to achieve a lot of the time, to just embrace whatever difficult situation or negative frame of mind we find ourselves in, but when we can just accept what is, there is an immediate shift to somewhere better. - Everything is I was in the kitchen in the morning. Mindlessly I was searching for something, anything to make me feel ok, to take the emptiness away. That’s when it came to me. Everything is as it should be. Everything wants to be thus. I wanna change it I want to rearrange it, I want to feel better somehow, But everything is how it should be. Nothing could be better could be worse. I love the fact that I’m singing this verse, coz I was low, weeks ago, sitting in the kitchen in the morning, mindlessly I was searching for, what then came to me Everything is as it should be. Everything wants to be thus. I wanna change it I want to rearrange it, I want to feel better somehow, But everything is how it should be. This is it. This moment right now. This is it. So what will I make of it? This is it. This very moment right now. This is it. So I don’t wanna lose it. Everything is as it should be. Everything wants to be thus. I wanna change it I want to rearrange it, I want to feel better somehow, But everything is how it should be. - Subscribe and follow on my other platforms for more Stella! . https://www.instagram.com/stellaangelikamusic/ . https://www.facebook.com/stellaangelikamusic . https://open.spotify.com/artist/5rW8Cifmv7wQ3txMzYqDJj?si=aROrFZD4SSOuOSXfQJ-pQA . https://twitter.com/Stellaangelika_ . https://www.stellaangelika.com S x

When you are completely empty and need someone to look after you because you can't do that for yourself. - Director - Alice Bird Producers - Alice Bird, Stella Angelika, Oron Cohen Director of Photography - Oron Cohen Editors - Alice Bird, Stella Angelika Grader - Arik On screen boyfriend - Miles Horsham-Batley - Take me home So I'm not alone When my mind is gone Take me home Show me peace When I need release When I'm scared to breathe I want to stay Oh take me home with you Show me love like I'm supposed to do Show me the way And I'll fight for the day To take you home Lay with me Until I'm asleep Even then don't leave I want to feel Your body Close to me With that heartbeat I know so well Oh take me home with you Show me love like I'm supposed to do Show me the way And I'll fight for the day To take you home Take me home So I'm not alone When my mind is gone Take me home - Subscribe and follow on my other platforms for more Stella! . https://www.instagram.com/stellaangelikamusic/ . https://www.facebook.com/stellaangelikamusic . https://open.spotify.com/artist/5rW8Cifmv7wQ3txMzYqDJj?si=aROrFZD4SSOuOSXfQJ-pQA . https://twitter.com/Stellaangelika_ . https://www.stellaangelika.com S x

For when you are being mean to yourself. - Director - Alice Bird Producers - Alice Bird, Stella Angelika, Oron Cohen Director of Photography - Oron Cohen Editors - Alice Bird, Stella Angelika Styling consultant - Johanna Elf Grader - Arik Camera Assistant - Ben Cole Location - Sands Films - Maybe you’re just not good enough Too sensitive, not strong enough Probably not still young enough Maybe it’s time that you gave up. Your family and friends the humour you. Increasingly they think you don’t have a clue. Maybe they’re right, you don’t have a clue. This is the sh*t I put myself through Do you? I’m not always the master of my mind It’s hard sometimes to not believe the lies Some days I can be mindful But mostly I still feel like a shambles And if you do, too then I’m singing to you My little serenade. You don’t even know who you are, You left yourself at the conservatoire Back when you still made your parents proud What can the say about you now? Nothing, there is no update. What progress have you actually made? It’s embarrassing, you’re embarrassing. Here I go again. I wouldn’t speak that way to a friend. I’m not always the master of my mind It’s hard sometimes to not believe the lies Some days I can be mindful But mostly I still feel like a shambles And if you do, too then I’m singing to you My little serenade. I’m too polite, I go quiet, Wouldn’t clock it When it’s dark behind these lying eyes. Try, I try to be light But sometimes it’s just easier to hide. Wish I wasn’t inclined To circling in my mind. It is so tiring. I’m not always the master of my mind It’s hard sometimes to not believe the lies Some days I can be mindful But mostly I still feel like a shambles And if you do, too then I’m singing to you My little serenade. Subscribe and follow on my other platforms for more Stella! . https://www.instagram.com/stellaangelikamusic/ . https://www.facebook.com/stellaangelikamusic . https://open.spotify.com/artist/5rW8Cifmv7wQ3txMzYqDJj?si=aROrFZD4SSOuOSXfQJ-pQA . https://twitter.com/Stellaangelika_ . https://www.stellaangelika.com S x

Take Me Home is out now! To celebrate it's release I've recorded a live version with @JackGillenGuitar. I have the official music video coming soon which I'm so excited to share with you all but in the meantime I hope you enjoy this! 💋 You can also listen to the studio version on all major streaming platforms now! — Take me home Take me home So I'm not alone When my mind is gone Take me home Show me peace When I need release When I'm scared to breathe I want to stay Oh take me home with you Show me love like I'm supposed to do Show me the way And I'll fight for the day To take you home Lay with me Until I'm asleep Even then don't leave I want to feel Your body Close to me With that heartbeat I know so well Oh take me home with you Show me love like I'm supposed to do Show me the way And I'll fight for the day To take you home Take me home So I'm not alone When my mind is gone Take me home — Subscribe and follow on my other platforms for more Stella! . https://www.instagram.com/stellaangelikamusic/ . https://www.facebook.com/stellaangelikamusic . https://open.spotify.com/artist/5rW8Cifmv7wQ3txMzYqDJj?si=aROrFZD4SSOuOSXfQJ-pQA . https://twitter.com/Stellaangelika_ . https://www.stellaangelika.com All my love, S x

I've had quite a few requests for lyric videos to my songs so here is one for 'Denouement'. This song is about getting to the point where you have had enough. It's about coming to the realisation that something or someone is draining you more than serving you. Finding the strength and self worth to leave these situations can be very hard, especially if you have been taken for granted for a long time. This song is about finally finding that strength. Finally choosing you, for the first time, in a very long time. Subscribe and follow on my other platforms for more Stella! . https://www.instagram.com/stellaangelikamusic/ . https://www.facebook.com/stellaangelikamusic . https://open.spotify.com/artist/5rW8Cifmv7wQ3txMzYqDJj?si=aROrFZD4SSOuOSXfQJ-pQA . https://twitter.com/Stellaangelika_ . https://www.stellaangelika.com S x

Just a quick video to say thank you to all my lovely subscribers! If you haven't already then please do subscribe and follow on my other platforms for more Stella! . https://www.instagram.com/stellaangelikamusic/ . https://www.facebook.com/stellaangelikamusic . https://open.spotify.com/artist/5rW8Cifmv7wQ3txMzYqDJj?si=aROrFZD4SSOuOSXfQJ-pQA . https://twitter.com/Stellaangelika_ . https://www.stellaangelika.com S x

What are you waiting for? Subscribe and follow on my other platforms for more Stella! . https://www.instagram.com/stellaangelikamusic/ . https://www.facebook.com/stellaangelikamusic . https://open.spotify.com/artist/5rW8Cifmv7wQ3txMzYqDJj?si=aROrFZD4SSOuOSXfQJ-pQA . https://twitter.com/Stellaangelika_ . https://www.stellaangelika.com S x